Film still: Under her Skin, dir. Simón Hernández Estrada & Liliana Andrade
Making a nightmare palpable
An acid attack might just be worse than murder. The corrosive liquid causes excruciating pain on the skin, eyes, nose, and mouth. The damage done by acid burns is irreparable for any plastic surgeon. Victims are scarred for life and often experience ongoing psychological trauma, such as depression. For Natalia Ponce it was not much different. However, this young Colombian woman was assaulted in 2014 but refused to become another anonymous, sad statistic.
“Eight years after the attack, we approached Natalia with the idea for a film and we began building a relationship of trust,” says director Simón Hernández Estrada. Director Liliana Andrade adds: “Natalia liked our approach. We did not want to emphasize the attack itself, but the process of recovery. How she fought her way back from the darkness—that was a film she wanted to make with us.”
During the covid lockdown, the filmmakers spoke to Ponce almost weekly and tested out different angles for the production that was later titled Under Her Skin. They also reached out to Ponce's brother, who had carefully documented the first years of her physical recovery using a photography and film camera.
Photo: Liliana Andrade (left) & Simón Hernández Estrada (right) pitching at IDFA Forum 2022
“These conversations gave rise to the idea of structuring the documentary around the five stages of grief, as described by psychiatrist Elisabeth Kübler-Ross in 1969: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance,” says Andrade. “Those emotions were recognizable to Natalia. At times, she had wanted to kill her attacker, later, she had felt very low, and now she is ready to talk about her rebirth.”
Under Her Skin follows the chronology of the acid attack but, according to Hernández Estrada, has two tracks. “The photographs from the years that followed the attack, when she underwent 37 operations, are very confronting. Natalia's brother also filmed the trial, but we don't know much about the perpetrator—a schizophrenic drug user whom Natalia had only briefly met twice. He was silent in court, and no one even knows where he comes from. In addition to recounting the facts, we tell the story of Natalia's inner transformation.”
“That part of the film is more introspective, almost dreamlike,” says Andrade. “They are mental landscapes that make Natalia's reality palpable. For months on end, for example, her eyes were covered to protect her eyelids and she could only turn her gaze inwards. The film reflects this in black-and-white underwater scenes, where the viewer experiences the feeling of sinking into something.”
This unusual approach was effective, as became evident during the presentation of the teaser during IDFA Forum 2022. Andrade recounts: “Without any additional explanation, everyone immediately understood why we had chosen to use a different visual language.” Which, according to Hernández Estrada, does not immediately mean that there is now a blueprint for the final film: “In editing, we will have to find the right balance between news images, personal documentation, and the more poetic imagination.”
This balance is not only important for the stylistic coherence of the film, but also for the strength with which the film's message is conveyed. “We want to raise awareness about violence against women and draw more attention to the mental health consequences of acid attacks,” relays Hernández Estrada. “But this is also a film about hope. Natalia refuses to call herself a victim. Due to the attention surrounding her case, the sentence for these types of attacks has gone from two to three years to 30 to 50 years. And she is currently supporting another victim in Mexico. Natalia demonstrates that you can turn something very bad into something good.”
By Edo Dijksterhuis
Film still: Under her Skin, dir. Simón Hernández Estrada & Liliana Andrade